A friend said to me the other day, "Brandy, you have to decide what you want from life. You need to decide how you want each day to look and then make that happen." She's totally right and it really got me thinking.
I've been so happy. My new store is amazing and really I'm living my dream. My print shop is ticking along at the usual busy pace. I have everything I want. A sweet man. Healthy awesome kids. A creative full-filling life. I do everything I want. I have amazing people in my life. But, lately I've been ending each day with a panic attack. For real. My heart is tight and I can't breath. My days are too busy. I'm torn in too many directions. And quite frankly, it's time to make a change. My body needs that.
So, I dug out this collage that I made a few years ago on a girls retreat. The project was to make a collage of your life and the things that were important to you. It was interesting digging it out because there are definitely some things that I've forgotten. Like, my health, rest, and taking care of the realtionships with people that matter to me. Sometimes life gets so crazy that I forget the most important things. Jeepers.
Last week I had someone start at my house as a housekeeper/organizer person. She is coming two hours a day to clean, bake, buy groceries, organize cupboards and stay on top of the craziness of our household. We are always so busy that I hardly have time to get anything done around the house and that stresses me out. If the house is a mess, I can't relax. Or, if a do choose to relax I feel guiltly the whole time that I should be doing something. Anyway, it's only been a week of having her and already a HUGE weight has been lifted and already I'm finding myself with more time on my hands to spend with friends and family. Awesome. It feels like the first step to getting what I want.
Next on the list of what I want.... eating better, exercising and finding some time to make art.
